lookin' for the flow - another 3-minute poem

so many people these days
lookin' for the flow
the way to go
the note that takes them
across the globe
but what are they really looking for?
some quote
or poet
or rhyme that supposed
to show it
show them the future from the past
in front of them through crystal glass
technology built to bring them back
remember the times when typing was wack
writing was in
and filling the communication gap
but they try their best to find something
someone else's writings
and teachings
to guide them on to higher sightseeing
farther travelling
better life dreams
but where they really need to look
is inside
the book to be written
lies in front of their eyes
but instead they disguise
their lies
diminish their size
while upgrading their status
the best of G5 flies
when will people look back
but not to reminisce
maybe looking for something
they shouldn't worry to miss
because it hasn't been written
that's the truth from the past
shows a reflection to the present
looking back through the glass
and realizing that
their possibilities
are inside,
within,
not a past man's cries
or sighs
but a new man's dreams
a new woman's vision
today's flow
today's rhythm

love.life.

sea

you look out upon the world
eyes bleary from the waves
crashing down in front of you
soft flowing curls lapping at your toes
tired from the day's content
from the obstacles you overcame
expressing joy from all you found
the secrets lying underground
underwater and over air
breathing deep the ocean air
looking out at the sky
horizon bright
seagulls fly
wishing you were nowhere else
but here with her
casting aside tools of war
battling across the ocean floor
waves of waves, armies many
brilliant blue but cautious white
leaning in and sweeping away
tempting you to another day
knees buckle
your breath rushes away
thinking of her
thinking of the moments just past
when your eyes were blurry
from the sea air
or from the water's weight
upon your heart


love.life

getting back

i'm hoping to have more time to write on this blog in the coming months since my general work/school situation has changed. there should be a ton of topics to discuss, and i'm just gathering them in my head a little bit, but they shall arrive!

trust in others,

love.life

I want to make $1 million

That's a reasonable goal right?

Through life I'm guessing people go through enough money to say they make $1,000,000 big ones throughout that time. I'm thinking I should keep a tag somewhere in my life telling me what I'm at, approximately of course. Is that a relevant goal though? I mean really, for life, we're always supposed to be so focused on NOT money, NOT financial wealth, NOT being greedy. But does working for a living and trying to attain some worth for that really greedy? I mean obviously people abuse power that they gain sometimes, but is buying a pair of Louis Vuitton kicks really some kind of anti-christ of morality? Does it make you a bad person for being able to afford more than one piece of property on Earth? I'm really not sure, but I do know that I have some pretty high goals for myself, and whether I attain them or not, I'm going to keep pushing myself, and that means pushing for high salaries, etc. In a way it really just seems like a natural part of life. Hopefully I'll make a couple million in my lifetime :P make sure my children are safe and taken care of. Maybe if I'm really fortunate, I'll have the possibility to become a venture capitalist, or angel investor, w/e you want to call it. Help other reach goals that otherwise really wouldn't be possible. Ah the wonders of the world, help yourself, then comes the next guy. I wonder if I can do both at the same time. Talk about breaking the mold, now that's something to really reach for.


love.life.

commenting

hey,

so i just figures out how this whole Blogger setting stuff works, and it should be possible to add Comments without the need for a Google account, and any other account for that matter. Test it out, hopefully it works!

inspiration

hey again, back after a while now, i guess i decided to let the posts on here age a little.

i was thinking about what i would write today, and then i thought, hmm i really need something to inspire me. and it just hit me, what really inspires people to do anything? i don't mean the silly things in life like walking around or eating or anything, but actually accomplishing anything in life. we all know we could basically sit around like idiots for our entire lives, and end up have a perfectly complete life, if that's what you want to call it. so what brings us past that point, to do everything we do every day? haha, maybe some of you are like me, thinking right now that maybe some of the things you do sometimes shouldn't have happened at all. but meh, at least you're doing something!

i diverged a little bit. what really inspires people? what keeps them together, and makes sure that they dont go crazy with all the things going on in their lives, or complete lack there of at times? i'm really not certain, i'm thinking, like alot of other things to do with life in general, there's alot of factors. maybe they believe their parents will smite them down if they dare be lazy. or maybe God will judge them at the end of their days. or maybe they want to do something great, and prove to the rest of the human race that they are superior, or maybe just lucky. probably a combination of all these things, and a hell of alot more.

one interesting thing is relationships, and i don't just mean the love kind. why do people take the time to get to know others? are they actually yearning so much for comparison that they really go out of their way to determine how successful they are? because really, even if you think you're an introvert, there's definitely a part of you that wonders where you're fitting in with the rest of the world. and therein lies the relationship: the interaction with the rest of the world. so what makes good relationships, or bad ones? or i think most importantly, what makes great ones? i've always, always wondered the answer to that, i wish i could just simply go out, act the way i am, and have great relationships with people. unfortunately humans are rather complex, and there's always people that don't see eye-to-eye with you (and you definitely don't see anything to do with them). It's rather unfortunate in a way, because who knows where those relationships could lead if they really were great. it's hard to judge how other people truly react to you, and in a way, maybe that's good, because if we could, it would become incredibly awkward everytime we acted like asses and knew it right away (as if that doesn't happen enough). I guess it's only when we really care about a relationship that we put in the effort to not act like a fool. but how do you get someone else to care about your relationship? haha, another question i'd love to answer, and properly.

ok i diverged alot....so....what inspires people? relationships? haha, maybe. maybe nature, or science, or technology. maybe everything. maybe just life.

Richard Feynman - The Universe in a Glass of Wine

Again, something unoriginal, but it really blew my mind when I heard it. This is a special lecture Richard Feynman gave to some graduates at Caltech where he taught. The audio recording, and a pretty ballin' picture of Feynman can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6ck3rO_m3A&NR=1

If you're in an awkward location where you can't listen to it, here's the text which I typed out myself:

A poet I think it is once said, "The whole universe is in a glass of wine." I don't know, and I don't know if we'll ever know in what sense he meant that, for the poets don't write to be understood. But it is true that if you look in glass of wine closely enough we see the entire universe.
There are the things of physics: the twisting liquid which evaporates depending on the wind and weather, the reflections in the glass, and our imagination adds the atoms. The glass is a distillation of the earth's rocks, and in its composition we see the secrets of the universe's age, and the evolution of the stars. What strange array of chemicals are in the wine? How did they come to be? There are the ferments, the enzymes, the substrates, and the products. There in wine is found the great generalization: all life is fermentation. Nobody can discover the chemistry of wine without discovering the cause of much disease. How vivid is the claret, pressing its existence into the consciousness that watches it!
And if in our small minds, for some convenience, divide this glass of wine, this universe, into parts - physics, biology, geology, astronomy, psychology, and all - remember that nature does not know it! So we should put it all back together, not forgetting ultimately what it is for. Let it give us one more final pleasure: drink it and forget it all!

Enjoy, and read this one last quote of Feynman's,

Physics is like sex; sure, you can get some interesting results, but that's not why we do it.

Your Heart Is An Empty Room

I apologize for the lack of creativity and originality lately for blog postings, but I was just listening to this song, and it's definitely got some of the best lyrics I've ever heard. The perfect mix of topics and poetry. This is mostly to look back later and smile.

Death Cab For Cutie - Your Heart Is An Empty Room

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see is where else you could be When you're at home
And out on the street Are so many possibilities to not be alone

The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
But you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
Cause you knew you were finally free

Cause all you see is where else you could be, When you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be,
when you're at home,
There on the street,
are so many possibilities to not be alone

Michael Jackson

Just thought I'd mark this pretty momentous occasion on my blog. I'm sure everyone knows about this by now. What a strange life, and pretty short too. I wonder what his family, and those really close to him are thinking now. He did change something great in the eyes of the world though.

RIP MJ, and peace to your family and friends.

808 and The E.N.D.

New music's coming out every day.

Kanye West's newest compilation of funky beats, electro-hip rhythms and auto-tuned melodic chorus riffs make a great mix, but does anyone really know where the 808 name comes from?

808 is actually short for a synthetic drum system, the Roland TR-808. A rebel amongst the 80s hip-hop beat systems, and basically thrown under the gutter by Roland itself after about a decade of lack of sales, suddenly this instrument has gained a huge amount of fame in the past few years, lyrical praise from Lil Wayne, Britney Spears (ugh...) and of course Kanye. His new album Heartbreak is full of riffs featuring the long-lost track splitter, full of faked-out drum sounds that are, in this day and age, so familiar that we probably even think it's just the norm.

Check out more at this site, Slate --- http://www.slate.com/id/2205718/

Black Eyed Peas finally came out with their newest bash-out against the electro-funk norm with The E.N.D. (Energy Never Dies). According to group member Taboo (the asian-looking yet actually native american descedant Karate master) the new album is meant to build upon the individual success of the members of the group, especially Fergie, who has unleashed herself upon the world lately with a ridiculously sexy and badass attitude, and will.i.am who has become significantly more credible in the producing and musical concept scene. will. is actually the main contributor on this disk, bringing into question Taboo's claims, but the beats are sick, no doubt about it. Favourites include a very melodic Meet Me Halfway, the newest radio fav I Gotta Feeling (+ video, check it out here --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_2rrxONlLo&feature=fvst), Imma Be which sounds ridiculously similar to A Milli from Lil Wayne (I wonder if he'll come out and claim that one amongst his millions of milli remixes), and a sick remix of the original Pump It aptly titled Pump It Harder found on the Target-Only Deluxe Edition. Oh and the slightly random rock beat Now Generation holds its own, I'm just curious why it's there at all with its retro hippy feel.

Hope you enjoyed this different type of blog. Comment on what you think. In the meantime enjoy a bit of 808 and Ring-A-Ling.

omens and karma

two pretty weird things have happened to me recently that I thought "how can this not be related to karma? this is just too weird":

1) the other day i was sitting in my room, and i looked out my window, and a rabbit was sitting right under my window sill, and so i watched it for a bit, and then suddenly it actually tried to get up to my window. like literally tried to jump up to the sill. it startled me so much that right after i shifted away from the window, and the rabbit ran away. Then, yesterday, i was looking out my window again, and suddenly there were birds in the backyard. all robins, and not just a few. probably over 30. i even called over my housemate to show him, and we were both pretty surprised by the whole thing. one really bizarre thing is how they all sat along the fence once they realized we were there, in a perfectly organized, spaced-out line. these things seem too crazy or odd, like some type of omen.

2) i am in a co-op education program. for my first job, during the interview in which i got the job later, the guy who was interviewing me asked me to clarify something on my resume. after i did, he basically said something like, "oh, that's really interesting, you should try to elaborate that a bit more, make it a bit clearer so that people know what it is" and i ended up doing so. very recently, i ended up getting my third co-op job. in the interview (also in person, and also in a room which i believe was right next to, if not the same room as the one i was just talking about), my interviewer was asking me about previous work experience, and it came up that i had succeeded in doing something pretty great at my last job, to do with research, that i didn't mention on my resume. she basically said the same thing as the last guy: "oh wow! that's really great, you should really include that for people to know, that's quite the achievement". next thing you know - job offer. is that karma, or just some really random coincidence? i'm thinking maybe in the future i should leave things off my resume just for the sake of mentioning them later!

one more thing - i thought it was interesting, one of my friends mentioned that he doesn't write in his blog all the time because he just doesn't have anything to say. i realized i think the same way, even though i never thought of it. i guess hence why i haven't written lately.

more thoughts and ambiguity in personalization to come.

bball

I decided to play alot of basketball today, just to relax. I think everyone likes to have something like that in their life, something where they can just breathe deeply and ignore all the stress and other less fun things they have to deal with. It feels good to focus on one thing in particular, without worrying about anything else. I'm really ok, nothing great, but I think with practice I can get alot better. Just having a hobby like that on the side is good, to keep the mind just relaxed and able to think of things besides yourself.

Someone in my class today (probably to their chagrin I won't mention their name) told me they had read my blog. Honestly I was pretty surprised, mostly because I had started this with the intention of not really focussing on what other people thought, but just as something that I could write for myself. But now that I think about it, a bit of fine-tuning on the posts would probably make it more inviting to alot of other people. Maybe they might find something useful in it, and gain something, or just change their views.

we'll see how this goes...


p.s. to Google for owning Blogger, its stupid that people have to have a special account to make comments. You guys are fools.

thanks

why do hardly any people say thanks?

it's probably one of my biggest pet peeves. I can't stand it when you do something for someone, go out of your way to make sure they're life is a bit easier, and they don't even thank you, or possibly even make any gesture of appreciation. how did people get so rude? are there parents like that? were they never taught how important appreciating other's actions is? I just can't believe how many people there are who simply expect things, and don't even realize that another person is doing something for them. how would they feel if it was them?

some people are so socially awkward too. like they just peak their head down the stairs and stare at you, and then run back up, as if you have absolutely no worth to them, god forbid that a real honest conversation happened.

sigh...

ups and downs

man eminem has some deep lyrics. like seriously depressingly deep. i don't think i'd ever like to listen to that stuff unless i was in a horrible mood.

but today was pretty damn good. when things go to plan people are happy. but sometimes things out of plan are equally awesome. my girlfriend always tells me that spontaneity and random events are the best parts of life, and honestly i'd probably have to agree. I think i spent over 2 hours today laughing with my friend over the most random things, and we still ended up finishing our midterm exam in one piece. maybe laughter is the best medicine, or the best shield.

i'm thinking i should switch up the format of my blog, maybe write some poetry, or comment on popular culture. i think whatever i end up doing, i just want it to be what I want, because that's really the point of all this. haha, maybe eventually i'll get more than one comment (thanks s).

as eminem might say, don't lose yourself, because the moment you own your life, you better never let it go.

definitely forgot

wow! what a hectic week! another crazy rollercoaster ride. i was shaking this morning from a bit of exhaustion, what a nuts adventure.

Interviews are interesting things. They always throw random things at you, that, whether they make sense or not, make themselves into the most awkward moments. Why do people get so worked up and nervous about interviews? I understand that looking for a job is important, but it seems like people relate more to others that are relaxed and congenial, not affected but stuttering or underwhelming shakes. I wish i had the stamina to go through a week of never-ending crazy and then sit down and be able to relate to some guy sitting in a lab across the country. Maybe I've pushed myself to far with this life, or maybe I just need a good break. But those are impossible to come by, at least right now.

I wish I could go to India. soon.

almost forgot

i actually turned off my computer before realizing i hadn't written anything today. anyways, wow what a day of ups and downs. it's crazy how random and interesting life is. i guess i'm saying interesting, rather than something like awful, because my day ended on a good note. But what if it hadn't? what if the oscillating wave of goods and bads had just decided to stop on the negative? i guess my mood would be totally different - maybe i wouldn't have even decided to come back on and write this. i wonder if alot of people really think about their days, reflect on their experiences. I saw two people that I haven't seen in a long time today, and it was really great. it's always good to keep in contact with people i find, networking is really a brilliant advantage to life. hopefully i'm able to keep those contacts for the future.

more, as always

waste of my time....maybe

why do teachers give assignments? why cant they just test us all at once? lol, sometimes i guess i feel the exact opposite; wanting unit tests and segmented percentage of the course. i guess people's minds change.

i had an interesting conversation with two friends today about what might happen if we took all the middle- and upper-class people out of the world and just had the impoverished and uneducated remaining. would like literally start all over again? would people have to teach themselves math and physics and complex science and art all over? Would there be another generation of Socrates, Plato, Aristotle, Picasso, Rembrandt, Monet, Einstein, The Beatles, Kiss, and Eric Clapton? Would there be new world leaders, completely different from their predecessors? Would North America become the wasteland of the world, while Russia or even Swaziland become the reigning world power?

An interesting concept. And now for sleep.

Hermitians + MARRs = Her-MARR-tians

Why do all of life's events come in packets?

It seems there's never really a consistency in how life goes. It's either everything at once, or total boredom for weeks on end. I feel like there's some kind of sick macroscopic version of the quantum theory playing out in my life, where all of life's "energy levels" are quantized, and I can't seem to find the steady rate. What were to happen if we just totally missed one of those periods, one of the up-times? Would our lives be changed forever if we weren't in 10 places at once? It seems like everyone either wants you around, or doesn't want to see your face. Either way, you're left wondering what the heck's going on, and why you're the one that gets abused by life's consistently awkward number of ups and downs. i wonder what happens to those people that can't handle the packets, the constant shift of pace and time. maybe that's where mental disorders come in.

lost for words

today it seems harder to write something. maybe i've gotten over that initial rush of emotion over writing a blog. or maybe i'm just a bit braindead today. i think i'm a bit worn out from work.

haha it's funny, i just thought of using one of those horribly cliche topics like scooters, or bus terminals. and then i thought, hm, i talked to my parents today, maybe i'll talk about that. and then for some reason, i looked over at my guitar and realized passions is a good place to think.

so passions. why do people even have passions? why do people get hooked on one thing? do they feel that it's necessary in society, or maybe that they remember something from their childhood and it makes them feel secure to relate to that again? maybe both, or maybe more than that. whatever the case i think passions are a great thing. they focus your energy, kind of like entropy being gathered together. i like focussing on things personally, and yet, i like focussing on all different things at once, so maybe passions are hard to come to. like music, or reading, or science, or technology, or business. but those are such broad passions. some days i wish i could define myself some specific passions and actually build them into realities. like say, becoming a master breadmaker, not that i'd want to do that. haha, maybe a lawnchair designer. i guess it's really up to creativity.

tomorrow i feel like i'll have something else to write about. it's amazing how there's always something. sometimes, like today, something out of nothing.

different names for the same thing

two topics today.

why do people get all bent out of shape over the smallest things? like calling something one thing, but being told "oh no, that's not right, ___ is better". but language is just a form of communication isn't it? honestly, what difference does it make whether we say a cow is a cow, or a dog even, as long as people know what we're talking about. but i guess these standards are set ahead of time, or something. language is made, and then followed. just like so many other things in life. people like rules. or maybe being ruled and controlled?

wouldn't it be amazing to see people across the world. I watched a video a while ago, brought out by Microsoft, of course, in which they depicted the future about 15 years from now. It wasn't one of those ridiculous videos where they show people flying around in space shuttles and living on different planets. they were talking about communications. and they showed children learning in classrooms where the walls were transparent screens in which they could see across the world to a different classroom, and interact with students from the U.S. to India. Things like taht are profound. back to what i said before, ideas are brilliant things. I would love for my children to meet other children across the world like that. language barriers would be channels for knowledge and discussion and unity in understanding. but then i thought, maybe people will consciously build up more biases when they see these things too young, only catching a glimpse of the other world. hah, maybe these things can wait.

speaking of communication, i love music too. maybe i'll talk about that next time.

The beatles or the rolling stones

so i figured i'd start out with a random musical quote, since that clearly seems to be all the rage now-a-days. humans are weird creatures, but life is awesome like that. what makes one person better than another? nothing really. people fret and worry about life, but why bother? you only have one anyway* so might as well live it to the max. so why do we not? what makes us want to just lie around, or just be complacent with our lifestyles, and revel in the idea of comfort. uncomfortable events are the most meaningful, i've found. people always like to stay away from shocks or confrontation, but what makes them? i mean, really deeply? is it their upbringing? i think that probably has alot to do with it. or maybe just their brain chemistry f*cking up with their emotions and their ideas. Ideas are a brilliant thing - even the word sounds fantastic. so how do people relate without ideas? with being so comfortable being far away, unreachable. and if you think you're one of those people who like to be social, socialites, i would say no you're not; those people don't exist. everyone enjoys complacency, and taking as little effort with things as possible.

i guess that's the point of this blog. to stretch mentally a bit, and let it all hang out. hahaha what a horribly awkward statement. who came up with the word blog anyway?

more to come.


*even if you believe in reincarnation, the memories are still lost. who wants to think about their next life as an ant anyway?